To stay or not to stay...

Cancer
POSITIVE TRAITS: You are one of the sweetest, most feminine signs of the zodiac. People trust you easily because of your sensitive, understanding and intensely emotional nature. You are creative and romantic, especially with loved ones, and you know just how to take care of the people around you.

NEGATIVE TRAITS: While others hold you in the highest esteem, you have little faith in yourself. You fall into depression quite easily and like the crab, retreat sideways into your sanctuary and wallow in your misery.

I didn’t do well for my Real Estate Finance test. I think the question was simple. But I got to blame for last night’s issues. Why is it that it has to be my fault? I’ve changed a lot for the better. But still, I got to be blame for the mistakes I didn’t do. He can’t forget the past, that’s for sure and got all mixed up with his feelings (tired, bored of me because we are 5 years now, can’t play his stupid Warcraft, didn’t get enough sleep etc). I know that. But why must he blame on me for the things I didn’t do? I blew it all last night. I’m sick and tired and had enough of this! I almost say that it comes to an end. But I just couldn’t say it. Every time these things happened, I just think of one thing… he brings great influence in my life. Now, I just don’t know what the purpose of staying. I’ve changed, but in return I get nothing. I care, in return I get nothing. I get NOTHING. Is this how bad it became when you have a job and at the same time has a commitment with your relationship? Is this relationship will end with a happy ending?

“Marriage is not important to me…I just want your love and take this as an experience in your life…”-

I don’t know what to do now. I wanted to take a good sleep but I have a lot of assignments to be done. I wanna lay on my bed and started to think about what I should do for this relationship but I just don’t have the urge to do it. I wanna eat but I’m too lazy to get up and bongkar kotak makanan aku. Tell me what should I do? Kenapa relationship ini sangat susah untuk dipulihkan. Walaupun ia sudah pulih, tetapi dia tidak dapat melupakan kisah silam dan menuduh things hasn’t changed!

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